21

I tried to write a poem,
For turning 21 today,
But the words I wanted to use,
Just kept on slipping away.
I tried to write a verse,
To enlighten someone's soul,
But honestly the truth is,
I'm not even turning that old.
So what knowledge could i give,
What wisdom can I share,
But the only thing I've learned:
Live with less fear, love with less care!

2017

There's a perfect full moon tonight.
It's smooth, round and so very bright.
The sun has watched me closely this year,
And whispered tales into the moon's ear.

There's a perfect full moon tonight.
She's heard how my heart lost to smite.
She showed me how I can still be whole,
Even though I couldn't even find my soul.

There's a perfect full moon tonight.
She's heard of my brain's crippled knight.
He tells tales of lost limbs and ugly scars,
But I've already watched from the stars.

There's a perfect full moon tonight.
She's heard how my idols came to my sight.
With smiles, joy and memories to last,
She served as a mirror into my past.

There's a perfect full moon tonight.
She's heard how my heart found delight.
She says how stars all have each other,
Beyond friendships to sister and brother.

There's a perfect full moon tonight.
She tells me everything will be alright.
Usually I'd question and beg to differ,
But I've grown, and today, I believe her.

Twenty

20.1
Today, I turn twenty.
So this is who I am right here, right now.
Plain and simple,
Pure and unfiltered.

I love TV shows and winter weather,
I love our world filled with wonder,
I love youtubers, music and poetry,
I love feeling the affection of another.

I love the challenges I have faced,
In sports , in games, in all my life,
I love it not for the suffering endured,
But for overcoming the internal strife.

But above all, I love human kind.
Their complexity, compassion and love.
Even the darkest soul, stone cold heart,
Will still shine when push comes to shove.

But not all is sunshine and rainbows,
I have suffered in solitude before.
Heart and soul repeatedly tarnished,
Yet saved by friends I truly adore.

I have lost friends and made enemies,
Powered through heartbreak and pain,
And in the end, you know what?
Hell, I'd do it all over again.



I'm not a teen anymore, so maybe its time my poetry style grew up too.

20.2 
Seven thousand three hundred and five.
A daunting number that seems too large,
Yet the days passing without pause,
Have only shown time's true visage.

All the people I have been live in me still,
A pixelated mirror image of my past,
And a foggy kaleidoscope to my future,
My present self evermore fading fast.

I drown in a sea made of myself,
A tsunami of infinite mes rise,
But comes crashing back into the sea,
Desperate, I surrender to my own lies.

I hope that twenty years of experience,
Has sharpened me into a better person,
But this story of mine is yet to be told,
My tale may yet end a sinister version.

Penance

It has always been ME,
Not the Power above.
Punishing myself.
Thinking I do not deserve love.
And maybe I was right,
Or maybe, I was wrong.
But it doesn't mean I deny myself
The things I truly long.
So let me keep on this journey,
Let me keep on getting lost,
Let me strive to survive,
And one day arrive,
May my hope never exhaust.

2016

Friendships now and friendships death;
Of when I was hurt and when I was healed;
Of those who stayed and those who left;
Of truths now hidden and lies revealed;
Moments of joy and moments of sorrow;
Of the words unspoken, put into rhyme;
The new year begins again tomorrow,
Let us hope for a better one this time.
For I've hurt, I've cried, I lost and I fell,
But I laughed, I loved, I sang and danced,
Sure, it may feel like a personal hell,
But 2017 will give me another chance.

The story of Life

Birth, the giver of life.
From the cry of your first wail,
The first breath of air you inhale,
Your life begins an original tale,
Unique in every success and fail.

Pain, the reminder of life.
The physical and mental suffering,
The wounds, the cuts, the bleeding,
The heart and soul, red hot burning,
Life telling you you're still here fighting.

Joy, the purpose of life.
The pure yet incessant bliss,
That none would ever want to miss,
Lost in an eternal ecstasy abyss,
Of life's gentlest, plumpest kiss.

Death, the taker of life.
Our final destination, we part,
Life's final, great work of art,
The crushing of our soul and heart,
The end of all, or a new start?

Love's Irony

The greatest irony of all,
I have eventually learned,
Is you can love with all of your everything,
And never have it returned.
Not that I have ever,
Expected it to be,
For love is about giving,
And not about me.
But it'd sure be nice,
If every now and again,
I had someone of mutual love,
To take away the pain.

Yet realistically? I never will.

And the sooner I accept it,
The better I'll be,
For life still continues,
With or without me.

Darkness

There was the darkness,
and there was me.
There was us,
And nobody.
I faced the darkness,
On my own,
Which means I lost,
All alone.
No torch, no flame,
No source of light.
No way to tell,
If day or night.
Blind, I see not
Where I tread.
Lost forever,
The light I had.

I have given up.

I have given up.
For every losing battle,
Will shake and rattle,
And cost me part of my soul.

I have given up.
And as surely as I will die,
I know this to be right,
I would rather not die
Of love and my thoughts at midnight.

I have given up.
For your intials say
Both kill me and kiss me,
And i didn't know which
I wanted more to be.

It is not that I decided
You weren't worth my time of day,
But rather you decided
I wasn't worth yours,
But I've learnt that it's okay.

So this is the story
Of a love sick pup,
And the tale of how
He has given up.

2015

With the heartbreak aplenty,
Abundant with sorrow,
Let's remember the good,
Start a new year tomorrow,
I've stepped out of hell,
And landed in london,
Settling in well,
A change so sudden,
New friends, new home,
Newfound independence,
Learnt to live without love,
Emotional transcendence,
Moved on from pain,
Held back no longer,
2016 is here,
And I'm facing it stronger.

We The People

We the invisible ones,
The unseen, noticed by none,
We live as individuals,
But as a silent voice united as one,
We roam and drift like ghosts,
Translucent and hidden from all,
That boy, the one you barely know
Brushes past you in the school hall,
That girl you bumped, knocked over,
Didn't complain, not saying a word,
These people their voices are soft,
They scream and shout but still unheard.
We are closed books of secrets,
Waiting to be opened with a quill,
For you to flip to our empty pages,
For you to write your story and fill.

We the madmen, the lunatics,
The outcasts that never belong,
In our own minds where it is right,
But by the words of society, wrong.
We hunt and seek like predators,
For an answer to our queries,
What are we made to be for,
And why our sanity varies.
Why do we do what we all do,
Where is the logic hidden behind,
You judge us for being abnormal,
But know nothing about our minds.
We are the world's genius intellect,
A discovery pending through time,
Yet society's judgement approaches,
Should we carelessly cross the line.

We the torn and broken-hearted,
The shattered and crumbling,
We try and try again to walk,
But still we only end up stumbling.
We hide in our rooms under covers,
Concealed from the world we cry,
We overthink and over complicate,
And get depressed as time ticks by.
Haunted in the present by the past,
We let our insecurities come to light,
We want to think happily and smile,
But we can't resist, we can't fight.
We are the broken-hearted, fallen,
We pick ourselves up to fall again,
We bandage our wounds and scars,
Yet still can't ignore all this pain.

We the living dead,
The ones slowly dying inside,
Our hearts endure no longer,
But the pain we have to hide.
We slowly fall apart, dying,
Shattered and still crumbling,
Our body weak, heart crying,
We walk but not without stumbling.
You see us with a smile worn on,
As we force ourselves to be strong,
We look back to compare now,
And wonder where we went wrong.
We are aimless, forever lost,
Without a soul nor willing heart,
Breathing but a lack of will,
Is what truly sets us apart.

We the angry, mad and infuriated,
The ticking bombs waiting to blow,
Our anger, uncontained dangerous,
Yet all this you should already know,
We were peaceful before, kind even,
But pushed to the limit, no return,
When we learned the truth of reality,
When the rage in us began to burn,
We were bullied or hurt or shunned,
Ill-treated until our limits exceeded,
Our patience holds us back no more,
We rest not until you're defeated.
We are driven by desire for revenge,
And fueled by our hatred for people,
This time ticks down towards zero,
Destruction caused forever to ripple.

We the people, parts of society,
The minorities, the different ones,
We feel, we thrive, we fight on,
In a war with no swords or guns,
We hunt for a home to belong,
For the people here are not us,
And they will never truly understand,
Our torture, our torment, our curse,
What stops us from being you,
We are not people of the norm,
We are different, and we accepted,
We are like you but of different form.
We are with soul, with heart, with mind,
When will you let us be with you,
We are all people, all of family,
Let separation no longer be true.

A-level Graduation: This Is To You

Hi! I've graduated from A-levels, so this is an appreciation post to all my friends in GIS who have made my A-levels a very enjoyable 2 years.

This is to you:

Killer sarcasm and jokes said,

You helped to push me ahead.

This is to you:

Richness of joy you always offer,

Kindness that is truly proper.

This is to you:

A great friend indeed I discovered,

And brought me back joy recovered.

This is to you:

Ever so kind and joyful like song,

I learned from you, right from wrong.

This is to you:

Joke I may about you so often,

Truth is my heart you have softened.

This is to you:

My savior and my lost friend,

Wrong I was you right my end,

Saved me from a lonely abyss,

Killed my sorrow, gave me bliss.

My love has failed,

We weren't to be,

So here it shall end,

Keys lost for locks on me.

So thank you. Thanks for everything!

Who said I couldn't

I was shattered,
With a broken soul,
Then you came,
And made me whole.
You picked me up,
And pieced me back,
You helped me put,
My life back on track.
I soon fell in love,
With your kind therapy,
But already knew,
It'd end in catastrophe.
You rejected my heart,
Yet my feelings still true,
Because who said I couldn't love you,

If you didn't love me too.

2014

Healed to be broken,
Mended to be shattered,
Found then lost again,
To me what truly mattered.
Built only to topple,
Risen only to fall again,
Forgot then remembered,
The heart's underlying pain.
Broken but then repaired,
Shattered but then fixed,
Friends that helped and guided,
Throughout all my feelings mixed.
Toppled but yet still towering,
Fallen but yet still standing,
I will continue to fight this fight,
With a faith that is never ending.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! It's been a hectic year for me, lots of ups and downs, but I got through it, so this is my year of 2014.

It's love.

It's love.
Like I've never felt it before.
A love so strong with passion,
Making me crave for more.
I saw it coming.
The heartbreak. The pain.
And yet i pretended for once,
That I could love normally again.
It wasn't your fault.
I'm broken and shattered.
But my suffering isn't important,
To me you're all the mattered.
It's love.
Only you I put above.
Desperate I was for you alone,
To finally return my innocent love.

Ecstasy

Kicked down the restraining walls,
I find myself freedom and liberty.
Like a sweet among my bitter days,
Love is now my new remedy.
Myself, I went mad with ecstasy.
Yet, a small part of me, still hollow.
So that small bit grew on its own,
Even though I smiled till tomorrow.
Loneliness returned, bringing pain,
For I was in the dark void once again.

Time

Every dawn a new day,
A fresh start tomorrow,
Every dusk another chance,
To leave behind the sorrow.
At sunrise we watch,
And admire the colors,
But often we forget,
To appreciate others,
After sunset we count,
And see the stars shine,
But often I forsake,
What's already mine.

What is love?

What is love?
They say it's a warm feeling.
Then why do I feel so cold,
Disgusting and unappealing.
What is love?
They say it's an infatuation.
Then why does it feel like
I have a slowly dying passion.
What is love?
They say that love will heal.
Then why is it so painful
Knowing these scars are real.
What is love?
None say that love is death.
Then why do I feel like
That sentence describes it best.

Game of life

Play your cards right,
In this game of life,
For victory and glory,
There must be sacrifice.
The cards get dealt,
No choice on your part,
But you get to choose,
When to play each card.
So that's how you decide,
Which way life takes you,
An influence so small,
Yet still a fact so true.

New Year

The end has come,
So did a new start,
It's time for us,
And a new year to part,
Start with new goals,
New hopes this year,
Yet the ticking of time,
Still strikes such fear.

2013

There was just darkness,
And I only saw nothing,
And yet in total emptiness,
I searched for everything,
I was blind yet still walked,
And roamed like a lost sheep,
I denied myself the truth,
And neglected feelings deep,
and then like a small lit match,
I found the smallest of light,
But in the total darkness,
It truly did feel so bright,
But I took the tiny match,
And lit a lantern to glow,
So I threw the match away,
It was a mistake, I didn't know,
For the lantern blew out quickly,
The match caused darkness to burn,
Though the fire brightly lit my way,
After the darkness it was my turn.


Happy New Year! This sums up my year of 2013 pretty well.

Dear Friend

Just when I thought it was time to give up,
Everyone around me was putting me down,
Suddenly came a beautiful glimmer of hope,
Someone who taught me to flip my frown.
I learned once again what friendship truly was,
Coming from someone who had once felt my pain,
A new friend I found, a new hope, a fresh start,
To feel joy and happiness and emotions again.
Here i dedicate this to you, from my heart,
Especially after all that you've done for me,
Accept my thanks in this poem, dear friend,
Now know I boast you my greatest friend with glee.

Possibly the most personal poem I have written... for someone else.

Distracted by a love you haven't returned
Even worse is that you weren't concerned
Because in secret I kept my love for you
But carefully I waited long and true
It isn't easy lasting three years
Especially since the day you leave nears
Childish may seem a love at first sight
However to me it was nothing but right
Ending with a question I just want to see
Will you please go out with me?


Such memories... The past is the past I guess, can't change what's already happened.

We are warriors

We are warriors
We will fight
Never give up
Day or night

We are warriors
We stay standing
Never give up
Keep defending

We are warriors
Who do good
Never give up
United brotherhood

We are warriors
So bring it on
Never give up
Wars are won

We are warriors
Fear not the grave
Never give up
Warriors are brave!

We are warriors
Feel our wrath
Never give up
Making our path

We are warriors
A shining light
Never give up
Know what is right

We are warriors
Achieving more
Never give up
We'd die at war

We are warriors
Sisters and brothers
Never give up
Fighting for others

We are warriors
But still alas
The peace we won
Won't really last.

Outcast

Discriminated, sent to die.
Denied, I want to cry.
Betrayed, I trust no more.
Tossed aside, my body sore.
Hated, I'm not surprised.
Unloved, my heart's deprived.
Despised, I succumb.
Detested, can't overcome.
Scorned, rejected by all.
Denounced, I slowly fall.
Cheated, no respect for myself.
Depressed, no more mental health.

Universal Love

From the top of mountains,
To the depths of the sea,
Only your love,
Is enough for me.
From planets in space,
To fossils underground,
I feel satisfied,
With this love I have found.
Like buildings unaccepted,
By the flowers and trees,
You have so kindly,
Rejected me.
We can only reap,
The seeds that we sow,
Honestly I just wanted,
For you to know.

Undefinable

Done with are those promised deeds,
Eventually may overcome my needs,
But surely it's impossible,
Because actions aren't reversible.
In my heart I kept you long,
Everything that was right and wrong,
Caught still in that sad past,
How long will this pain last?
Even the best can't write and rhyme,
What is in this love of mine.

Childish

Sometimes I forget how old I am,
Returning to my dream wonderland,
Relax, enjoy, play some games,
Meet beings with peculiar names,
Adventure and mystery altogether,
It doesn't matter if now or never,
Because time was just an obstacle,
Of our now realistic cruel world.

Heartbreak

Will I ever love once more,
As strongly as I did before,
You so kindly broke my heart,
And slowly just tore me apart,
I'm on the floor, I'm on my knees,
I want no more, I'm begging please,
Free me from these chains I'm bound,
And return this great love I found,
But done is the sorrowful deed,
Already it's lost in the past,
You left to deal with my own,
And drown in this sea so vast.

Victor's Cost

We've finally won,
Our enemies' loss,
We may have won,
But lives were cost,
Victory is ours,
Feel glory within,
But we're going to hell,
Because killing's a sin,
Their walls have crumbled,
Our enemies fall again,
There are parties held,
And those still in pain,
Some men are drunk with joy,
Yet other men go insane,
Some day, the sun shines bright,
But others, there is only rain.

Desperation

The devil feeds off our lives,
And stabs us with a thousand knives,
We rise, to be knocked down and fall,
And in last desperation, we call.
Seeking for one chance, last hope.
Life's risky like walking tightrope,
One mistake, fall a thousand feet,
And down to a cruel end we meet.

Loss

I grief the loss,
Of feelings deep,
I take the costs,
My soul it reaps,
My passion gone,
My heart is heavy,
A new age dawns,
Yet I'm not ready.

Fire-power

From the dawn of time,
The world was run,
By clothe and food
And sword and gun,
People so willing
To expand their wealth
At the sacrifice
Of their own health,
The world shall fall
To greed and desire,
Forever to burn
By corrupting fire.

Seperation of distance

How painful it is to be sitting here,
So far away from my one so dear,
More painful that she doesn't care,
That I'm not actually over there,
But still I wish her all the best,
That she recovers well with rest,
Since she just had an operation,
This poem to her is my dedication,
This is my testimony of love for you,
For my love now is as ever so true.


Written for DC, a day after her operation, shared with you today, as I miss her in my heart.

Sit and Think

I sit, I think, I ponder,
I relax and often I wonder,
Every time if I should surrender,
Is my enemy the real offender,
Is it me the innocent one I thought,
In this illusion, blinded and caught,
Not seeing the world so cruel,
Treating it like a precious jewel.

New loves to heart breaks

New love is a chance again,
To once again experience pain,
That hurt you already before,
Yet something you still want more,
And live life with a broken heart,
Without the one you couldn't part,
Living alone for so damn long,
Make me feel just so damn wrong,
I want to once again feel love,
And let one girl be just above.

TIME IS AN ISSUE

Because time takes a toll,
But people take it all,
And knowing friends I want,
And the time i have in front,
They know not who I be,
They know not what I see,
And time would be an issue,
Everyone knows it's true,
But how do we try fixing this,
Not knowing what the problem is.



I have more to type out but we'll save it for some other day :D

Weather of hope, Weather of fear.

The thunder is my voice, the lightning is my sight,
The thunder shows that in my voice there's power and might,
The lightning shows that I am a worthy opponent indeed,
Let the rain and howling winds challenge you to proceed,
But then the sun comes out in the darkest of the days,
And it lights the path to show me even better ways.

I don't know what to choose

This feeling i feel, doesn't feel bad,
So I must be feeling completely glad?
But the again its not completely good,
So I guess I must be in a bad mood?
So I think back and I think once more,
I wonder if I've felt this feeling before,
And then i realize what this feelings is.
I've fallen into a confusion abyss.
And now i need to choose which choice to take,
fortunately, there is no way I can make a mistake.
But sometimes right things end up wrong,
and sometimes weak things end up strong.

New Love again

From cat to hound,
Whats lost is found,
To love once more,
As i loved before,
Given another chance,
Just one last dance,
Whats lost comes back,
And old toys sit on the rack,
This time is the last,
But it won't end fast.

And in such a short time,i did make this rhyme

the more steps i take,
the more mistakes i make,
how much more pain,
turn me insane,
I'd rather go crazy,
leave my memory all hazy,
cause i don't want to remember,
the love that started in December,
and until right now, right here,
you still, have no idea.

True Love

Love is a feeling,it comes form the heart,
it strikes fast and sharp, a bit like a dart,
It gives a warm feeling, a bit like the sun,
But it can hurt just as much, a bit like a gun,
You see the eyes shining, twice as much as the stars,
You can feel the pain in your heart, twice as much as the scars,
And sometimes it causes heartbreak and pain,
And the hurt to your heart will always stain,
I can say nothing more, but give you one clue,
Love from the heart is love that is true.

I leave everytime I see hatred...

I've got to go,
I'm going again,
Don't like this feeling,
This feeling of pain,
I can't resist it,
can't resist any longer,
I can't fight it,
It's getting stronger,
It's growing within me,
My body's it's host,
It's hurting my heart,
I get hurt the most.


If i could control the universe i would make you mine...

Noone is perfect...

The fox think he is smarter than the owl...
I am the glorious fox, the most cunning and smartest,
I’m better than even the Owl, so I’m the greatest.
But what if others don’t think so? What if they’re talking behind my back?
What if they think I’m not professional enough? What if they see a skill that I lack?
Some people tell me the owl is smart, they say he’s the wisest of them all,
But I think that I am better, I hope I can emerge as tall.
There’s a competition tonight, the competition of wisdom,
The winner shall be, the new advisor of the animal kingdom,
I know the old owl and I know that he’ll go,
And if I do win, that would be a great show.
But can I really do it? Am I confident enough?
I try to look the best, Act smart act cool and act tough.
I don’t want to lose to him, I don’t want to look bad,
But if I do fail, Why, I would be so very sad.

Hatred overwhelmes me

Everywhere where I go,
Everywhere I am,
Everyone I know,
I'm cursed by the damned.

But somewhere within,
I know there is something,
Although this curse is pinned,
But it is forcing me to finish this thing.

I must finish what i started just now,
I must never give in to the devil,
Buy yet i don't know how,
But the feel of accomplishment will just give me the thrill.


It took awhle to write this...(like 10minutes...) so I hope you guys...what was the word I was looking for???NVM...

You see me happy, but im CRYING with my heart

'Fake Friendship'
When I look at you,
I can see your disgrace,
When you look at me,
Can't you see the tears on my face?

And when I needed your help the most,
I asked with my heart,
But not only did you abandon me,
But you tore my soul apart.

And now I have given up,
You really brought me down,
On my face is a smile,
But in my heart there is a frown.

A basic poem, A lot of hatred

But why, when I was once so glad,
Reasons unknown why you made me sad,
All i know is that to me you are bad,
Now you know I am really mad,
Do not worry for you shall see,
On this page who you shall be,
Note that when you are dead that i will be filled with glee,
Lay low is what I would do if you were me,
Over do it and you shall die,
How i will relief a faithful sigh.

You guys out there may not know who I am talking about ( especially does who did not go singapore trip) but i will give you a clue:

Through your eye the initial is,
The person i am talking about in this.

School Departure Curse

Leaving the school,
Was a curse for me,
My grandfather passed away,
I'm not happy.

Grandfather passed away

Birthday

Birthdays are rare,
They come once a year,
A terrible birthday,
Is what everyone will fear.

Its my BIRTHDAY!!!

P.S. no time to prepare for this.made it up within 24 seconds(true)!!!!!

Friendship's betrayal

Sadness has arrived,
Soon comes the rain,
The betrayal of friendship,
The greatest of pain.

Lost friends before? This poem is best for you!